Sunday, April 24, 2011


Is Easter.  Happy Easter to you and yours.
It's a holiday for most.  Not really for me.  Yes, I'm Catholic, but not practicing.  No, I'm not the hypocrite that goes to church on major Christian holidays but not the rest of the year.  I just don't go.  I do believe in a higher power.  After all, if I didn't, I don't think I'd be here.......or, maybe it just wasn't my time to go.

At any rate, holidays are hard for me.  I tried to make the best of them when the kids were young.  It was always a struggle as my partner in life, doesn't really get a kick out of any holidays. Not birthdays, not Christmas, not Easter, nor anniversaries.

I don't really know why.  I think there was a disconnect when he was young.  

It's my own fault.  Even tho I tried as much as I could to make things good for the kids, I guess in some way, I let them down. 

It's days like this, that I miss the people that should be in my life.  Family.  But, it is what it is.  I'll make the best of the day for myself, and the rest of the world will celebrate with others.  At least the sun is out.  It's going to be hot (not my favorite temperature) but I'll do what I can.

I've already made bacon to go in the potato salad.  I've boiled the potatoes, mixed them with the mayo, salt, and pepper, a little sweet relish, and some of the bacon.  I sit here with a piece of whole grain toast, a slice of cheese, and a couple of pieces of bacon, and I'm eating and drinking my tea.  The ice maker is clunking (need lots of ice for the ice tea I'll make later).  The horses are snorting out back as they eat the lush spring grass.  

I got on Facebook and no one that I know was on line.  They all are living their lives in another way.  

Yeah, I'm sounding quite sad, aren't I?  Well, time to get off my butt and do something around here.  I'll get dressed, and probably go into town to see if Walmart is open as I need some red onion, more mayo, and a couple of other things that I forgot I'd need for today's meal.  Steak, potato salad, brocolli salad.  It'll taste good later on.  I'll also probably do some weaving, and maybe I'll even start to tear the wall paper off the bathroom wall - hey, might as well be productive, right?

I hope whatever your day brings you, is the kind of day that brings you love, peace, and happiness. 


mainer said...

Sorry you sound so sad. Boil at least one egg and paint it. That will make you feel better:)

MarthaVA said...

Thanks Judee. I was sad. But the day turned out ok. I had egg salad for lunch today - with leftover bacon on it. Yum. :-)
Today is a much better day.
Love ya