I can hardly believe it's almost the end of 2014. Christmas, as of this writing, is 10 days away. Holy Cow! How did this happen?
This year has been full of ups and downs for me. For some reason, Summer was awful as far as my moods, and I had a lot of meltdowns. I think some of it came from unanswered questions. Those answers eventually came at the end of summer/during fall. Questions like; can we afford to move? The answer is; no. We can't move from here, for a number of reasons. That means that I can't even think about that as an option for maybe another 5-10 years. By then, I'm going to be OLD!
The other questions I keep asking myself are things like; should I keep my business going, or throw in the towel? I finally decided, that's just a dumb question...........of course, I should keep my business going! Why wouldn't I? I ask myself the question because the business hasn't grown much. I make one or 2 sales if I'm lucky, on my Etsy shop. I do okay at the two fiber festivals I attend each year. It's a lot of work going to the festivals, but I love being there, and talking to people one-on-one. I love the interaction. Just because I don't sell out of what I have, doesn't mean I shouldn't keep going! I just tend to feel like a failure, and want to give up. Dumb.....I'm finally doing what I love. Why would I give that up?
Sometimes, I feel as though there are quite a few restrictions made by myself and my guilt, and by my husband, who basically is the financial person that funds what I'm doing. I don't really make that much off this business per year. I realize there are restrictions for a reason. Sometimes, I want to get into this full-tilt, because I think if I did, it would be more successful. Unfortunately, there's no proof of that.....so I have to do what I can, when it makes sense to do it, and work hard until the rest falls into place.
Today I received another one of those emails from The Daily Om. It talked about alters. As in, having an alter and having it in a place where you can sit and meditate and think about the things you are doing with your life. They said it's not for praying, necessarily, although, if that's what you want it to be, it can be. They say, it probably already exists in your home, somewhere. Humans tend to gather and display things that are meaningful to them, grouping them together so they can gather joy when looking at them.
This is my new little alter, on a corner of my desk. I was inspired to clean the crap off my desk, in order to make room for the alter. I love sitting at my desk, staring out the window at the yard, in the summer, watching the birds and hummingbirds, and in the winter, looking at the shadows. I think about my life, and where I am, where I've been, and where I hope to go. How I hope to be successful, and how I get inspired just sitting here, staring at nature. So I decided the corner of my desk, would be a great place for my alter.....
I wanted the lights put on the porch immediately after Thanksgiving this year. I love my porch lights. At night, I can sit in my office, or the living room, and look out. I imagine the people going up the main road and seeing the lights, and the lights cheering the people up. We're the only house on the block with lights. This year, I bought extra lights to put up. Hubby didn't understand, but I get joy out of them. So he gave in.
I did play with this photo, and made a card out of it. Here it is:
Well, that's about it for now. I'll be back again soon. Oh, and if you're reading this before Weds, the 17th of Dec, 2014, I'm having a sale on Etsy for 20% off over a $15 purchase....and it's a great sale. The sale code is HappyHoliday20 and it's also listed on the shop dashboard.
If I'm not back before Christmas, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays!